Bands, Books, and Psychoanalytic Fangirling

It's called Flyleaf. Ever heard of it? It's amazing. I'm listening to it right now. It's got the awesome complex melodies of Evanescence but the emotional background of Skillet. The best of both worlds. - sigh -
Anyway, on another note, this semester of school, I'm reading the following books, and I am SO excited. Like abnormally excited.
I'm reading:

• The Prince by Macchiavelli (rants will ensue)
• The Imitation of Christ by Thomas á Kempis (yayyyy)
• Beowulf (with commentary and notes by J.R.R. Tolkien) - very happy about this one -
• The Odyssey by Homer (also happy about this one)
• The Canterbury Tales

HAPPINESS!!!
I'm also doing pre-preparation for NaNo (ahahaha writer terms).
I'm doing an essay on Rodyon Raskolnikov's mental state for school, as well.
For those who don't know who Rodyon Raskolnikov is, he's the main character from Crime and Punishment.
Ooh I shouldn't have mentioned that now I'm going to rant
Anyway... Rodyon's pretty messed up. But he's a fascinating character to psychoanalyze. So I'm doing that.
(he's not someone you'd like to meet in a dark alley)
(on the way to a certain pawnbroker's)
(especially not if you perceive that you see an axe in his coat)
(then point that out to him)
(and consequently get that axe stuck in your head)
(yeah)
It's a dark book.
- zips lips -

Jubilee

I finished the first draft of my project! I'm so happy... - does dance of joy -
Anyway, the final product came out to 25,000 words, approximately, which is a good improvement from last years'. (the last finished NaNo was 13,500.)
I'm steadily becoming more proficient and finishing things more, which I am also happy about. That's been a problem for me. Actually having a plotline and being able to conclude it.
Anyway, happiness and freedom! FREEDOOOOMMM
In a couple months, I'll begin the revising process. :)
Thanks!
~ Amber Shipp

i killed the character

I did it
and now I can't do anything else.
- sobs into arm -

Two Chapters Of Stress Abundant

Hello, reader.
I have two chapters left in the story that I now endeavour to complete.
These two chapters kill off, consecutively, two characters that I really do not wish to kill.
I have thus begun to procrastinate.
To ward off this procrastination, I must write a chapter a day for the next two days.
By Wednesday the project shall be complete.
I'm dreading it and I want it to be over with.
why
why so you do this to me writer side
why
Also I feel like my story's failing... But I know it's kind of the awkward "Calm before the Storm" chapter that I just wrote, because the climax for four of my seven subplots (don't judge, I know I'm insane), ends in that small, five-page next chapter.
and the next three end in my last chapter.
why.

To The Doomed One

Dearest Character,
I don't want to kill you.
You're so young and happy - your new life has just begun.
But alas, the end is where we writers begin.
In killing you, I have changed a man's life forever. And for the better.
In killing you, I made your brother realize what he was missing.
In killing you, I brought a light to this dark story.
In killing you, I will destroy the hearts of the other characters, while making them closer to each other.
I think you would have wanted it this way.
Love always,
~ your mourning author

Replacement

Greetings. Amber here once more!
The last few posts that I have posted were somewhat angsty and now that that part of my life is over, I'm good. I have an amazing new friend, but friendships are definitely hard to maintain while being, as I am, a Traveling Wordsmith.
It is very fun having a companion in this affair called life that has... Basically the same exact interests as me except for the writing part. (she's an artist.)
So, an update on my novel - I released it from its existence. (A.K.A... I quitted it.)
I started a new novel. Actually, it's not really a novel. It's more like a novelette. Yeah.
I've discovered that I simply cannot write in depth for a long story yet. I guess I don't have the skills developed. (But I can grow a mustache... Haha... Just kidding. I'm a girl. I don't have facial hair. Napoleon Dynamite, guys.)
Anyway, I have also discovered a great interest in classic literature.
You'll most definitely be hearing rambles about that.
Thank you for your time and attention.
~ Amber Shipp